I'm in a real weird mood because I cant decide how I feel. I'm not sad or low but I'm not high or manic either. It is soo weird its like little fluctuations of mood but through a numb mood. I feel drained of energy and just want to sleep lots but am staying awake so that I sleep properly during the evening. I might have a one hour power nap later but personally if I can avoid it I will.This is so unusual for me and in fact it is really really tiring for me. I feel like I'm here but not here, like I'm looking in frm the outside. Everyone is acting different than me and its so weird to see, I dont want to go out and be with them incase they think im weird when it's not me it's them.
I know it's not me cause I'm not manic or low so it can't be me HAHAHAHA fuck you BP!!!!
Ok I'm getting really tired now and a headache has crept in as well so I think I might have to have some pain relief (which I hate) and sleep through it. But then I'm going to wake up all itchy from the paracetamol thats in the meds..... oh well I really dont care I'm too tired...
will blogg soon love and light to you all xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
I couldn't tell you how many times I felt exactly the same way, just numb, no feeling.
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