MEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I have decided men are the route of all EVIL ...and need to be kept for breeding and use as sexual slaves in harems of old at womens mercy!!!!!!!

Me and Chaz (me trusty pal bro in law and clean freak buddy) cleaned the house while GRUMPY OLD GIT STUART was at work...wahoo time to do stuff without either getting moaned at or patronised!!!!!!!!! Yes he has a frustrating habit of moving the goal posts ie awwww hun you look tired dont worry relax let me look after you then you dont do anything you just sit on your laptop all day and talk to your friends and leave me everything to do ????????????? I offer to help get told no sit down, I do stuff when he is at work and I either get told off for making myself tired out OR he doesnt bloody notice!!!!!!!!!!!! I mean come on how am I supposed to know where I stand ????

Anyways the house looked great when he came in last night, it took on and off all day cause I have to have things just so or else I go demented. Ok I hadnt eaten all day that I will put my hands up too BUT bear in mind we have little food in til pay day and I was waiting to have a hot meal with the boys at tea time not be selfish and stuff myself during the day. I was also thinking that it would stretch the food further as well so I thought I was being wise.....BUT oh no yet again Im in the fcking wrong so this time he goes right on one at me. Well as you can imagine I just went mad, flew into a rage and well truth be known I had to physically walk away before I stabbed him with the knife I was using to cut scallops for frying with. Literally I walked up to the bathroom sat on the loo and couldnt cry so like a fool I cut my thighs to ribbons......now I look dreadful and by god they hurt. I feel so ashamed of myself cause I know I shouldnt cut and if he sees it he will go mad and because I was so close to stabbing him. He frustrates me beyond belief at times I know but that was just such an awful moment...no voices in my head this time just an urge to kill end of story.. it was like freedom just that moment in time where the real me was alive again. Now I want to curl up and die because I look like so mad serial killer freak and I hate it...am I going mad?????

R.I.P

Rest in Peace my beloved friends, family and pet. You are gone but never ever forgotten. You sit in our hearts and watch over us in times of trouble and for that we are forever grateful. I love you all with all my heart may you find freedom in Summerland xxxxxxxxx

Twinnys forever....

Everyone who follows my Blog regularly knows I talk about my Twinny a lot and am extremely connected and view her as more than family but an actual part of me. Well one Samhaim ( off all days wahoo) we went to visit her at home and it was like we had been together forever and not met in person for the first time. Everything was so comfortable and relaxed, we laughed, hugged, joked and discussed so many different things. I was soooo sad when I had to leave as I didn't want to be parted from her and feel like I have left a little of me with her.
She is a gorgeous, loving, wonderful person on line and even moreso in person. I totally adore her. Jamie is great he is such a giggle and the weird thing is that he and stu have a lot in common as well lololoolool. So not only do Twinny and i have a connecction so do Jamie and Stu, usually Stu is a people watcher but at Twinnys he jabbered away and it was great to see him come out of his shell like it I was so surprised!!!!!!
I can see this being a wonderful and long lasting friendship, we are making plans for time away next year and some other bits and pieces which is great as i know that it will be amazing to happen and we will all have a fab time together.

I love my Twinny and her family as my family, thank you Twinny for loving me and accepting my love and friendship back. You are special and dont you dare ever ever forget it !!!!!!!!!!

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RELAXATION!!!!!!!!!

Wow I am exhausted, we have been away for a few days to celebrate my sons 18th birthday and visit my family in my hometown of Bristol. To say it has been hectic diesnt cover it to be honest. It was a 3hr drive down followed by lunch and a lil est before going to visit my son for another 3hrs. Then we went back to my mum and dads where we where staying and not long after went to bed as we where exhausted and it was 11pm at night.

The next morning we all had to get a wiggle on preparing for the imediate family meal out that night and I helped my mum prepare the stuff we could for the buffet on sunday. I had my nails doen and finally gave in to exhaustion and fell asleep for 2hrs.

We went out for about 3hrs and had a lovely time stuffing ourselves in an all you can eat place and laughing and joking with one another. The birthday boy looked like he was going to pop!!! we travelled back home all fatted out in a taxi and i lasted 20mins before going to bed lol.

sunday was non stop family til william was exhausted so we took him home to his dads. we stayed talked and then went back to mums and after 20 mins half hour i went to bed.

monday was non stop again with bathing in morning packing our case back up loading up the car, driving to Twinnys having a great time there and then coming home.. I was so relieved when we got here and am just loving it again. Never again do I want to live in a city, i love my lil village and its quiet life.