Went to what i thought was an appointment with my cpn the other day to be greeted by the shrink!!!! ok fair enough was very ermm freaked out and it took me a little while to adjust but i managed to get through it and an 1 one hour appointment turned into a 2 hour appointment!!!I was exhausted before i went but well i was a mess when i came out. I came home confused and upset and just worse than when i went really.
In their wisdom now they are diagnosing Emotional Instability Personality Disorder with or without Bi Polar which will according to them be evident through time.
I must admit it has thrown me into a bit of a tail spin as i had got used to the BP diagnosis and had begun to start to heal and try and figure out where i was going??? Now well Im back to the begining Im still at risk because of the traits of the illness i carry a risk the same as I do with the BP if not higher ( oh thanks for the reassurrance mr skrink!!!) with the suicide and the self harm issues.
Ok there is a silver lining though, we are going to start a long course of psychiatry sessions and work things out session by session. So Im not going to be negative, Im going to keep putting my best foot forward, survive day by day and just sort things out as they happen.
love and light xxx
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