Feel $hit!!!!!!!

Today is a $hitty day, I feel like hell on earth. Still no call from mental health team and the dumbass doctor only gave me enough meds for two weeks so Im having to go in every time for a progress visit which sucks!!!!!!!
My face is numb so it means Ive had a bit of a turn in my sleep (what little I got!!!!) and basically I looked like a total mental patient in the waiting room and surgery!!! I couldnt stop rocking and stuttering as it was a different doctor yet again, thats 3 visits 3 doctors, I HATE CHANGE YOU IDIOTS!!!!!!!!
I could quite happily turn on a penny today and slap someone stupid....ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Why are some people so fucking dumb!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Only upside is Im attempting to make an oxtail casserole type thing which I hope turns out ok??????? Its in on a slow cook now and will be ready for a nice hot meal later. If it fucks up at least the animals will get a bonus for supper and I will do chicken dippers with chips in the fryerr cause at least I cant screw that up!!!!!
On the subject of idiocy what kind of wanker reverses out of a doctors car park in a friggin white van (big one) at top speed and dont look where he is going......answer the tosser we met today!!!
I mean FFS how dumbass can you get at least Stu had sense to be careful driving and aware of traffic!!! The dog has decided to have a mental freak out and started with seperation anxiety and is now a friggin cling on and cries cause he cant get in the back seat of the car and now travels in the estate boot bit, where he is actually safer....the bloody noise drives me potty!! Sorry Khan I love you to bits but hey come on I need space too!!! Yeah hes also taken to sleeping above my head like a huge russian hat so by the time later at night comes I have Solly perching as close as he can get ON me or next to me and the flamin dog above my head with stu doing his best feotal possition in the middle of the bed..while on purrs and digs his claws in and the other two snore like bloody wart hogs!!!! AND THEY WONDER THAT I CANT SLEEP!!!!!!!
Ok vent over, that fool at the doctors just set me off and I have to try and calm down, its so hard to control the rage at times, I really wanted to stop his van drag him out and batter some sense into him to be honest...but i realise i would probably get arrested and then have no meds and then where would I be???? I can tell yah up shit creek without a paddle..

hugs to all xx