How I came to bw a Wiccan

Twelve years ago I was talking to a friend of mine (she knows who she is) and she had some information on her PC screen about Sanhaim she was going to print off for her friend. I asked if i was allowed to read it and she was " yeah ok". I knew she was a Wiccan as we had discussed it before but i didnt want to pry into her private life and ask her about it. That particular day after reading the pages she could see i had questions and just sat there smiling waiting for me to ask. So i took the bull by the horns and we spent the day drinking tea and discussing things. I went home with a million and one questions i still wanted answered and began looking at the internet sites she had kindly had written down for me.

She is the worlds most amazing person, a survivor in the true sense of the word, after a life of ups and downs i will not go into. She was happy, balanced and really at one with the world around her.I had always thought there was more to life and had been looking for something that made sense in life, i had started Reiki and the two seemed to balance eachother and then it all clicked into place. So i decided that i wanted to explore more and began to very slowly learn and practise the craft, not moving on until i could do each thing well enough that i didnt need my book or the net to look at. I started using the tennets in real life and slowly i found that my life itself began to change and my outlook on life changed. I found it helped me through some of my worst moments including a full nervous breakdown,divorce and suicide. It bought me back on track once i was medicated properly, and helped me gain comfort and keep the belief that my life is worth living and that people loved me.

I practise a minimum of once a day even if its while im relaxing or in the bath. I dont always need to perform rituals nowadays and i can cast a circle that actually goes from the boundry lines of where we live down into the earth and above the house.I rarely use tools as i dont need them but i do enjoy using them on certain occaisions. So off and on i have been practising for those twleve years, the ex husband hated it so i had to do everything descretely and it was very constraining. I now have a new husband who is totally understanding and also self dedicated to the craft. Its lovely to be free discussing things, having altars out and decorating the house with wiccan items. Stuart is enjoying the library of books we have accumilated from shops and e books from the net, we celebrate the sabbats with meals and different activities like walks cuddles and have waltzed under the stars for the first time. Living where we are is brilliant as i can practise and not feel like the neighbours are peeking out the windows at us or thinking we are weird.We have access to the natural world on our doorstep and can walk in country fields that are just down the road from us.

I feel more at home here i can just breathe in clean air, feel the difference in the water and i am finally gaining weight after many years of struggling. The lack of stress is helping with my Bi Polar to a degree and as i really do enjoy my life changing move and would recommend it to anyone who is in the situation i was then. Take that step, make the move and get yourself a new life it is so worth it. The Wiccan way seems to flow more easily here, the connection to the natural world makes things so easy and the relaxing approach to life in a village is brilliant. People are genuine, when they say hello they really mean hello, they talk to you, accept you for who you are, they are welcoming, helpful and friendly beyond belief. I would never have believed that this kind of life existed to be honest, i have been a city girl all my life and even when i lived near the suburbs of the city it was still busy and just made me unhappy.

Ok it does have its down side, i have moved 251 miles from the city i grew up in and have left behind my family who i miss terribly. To be honest though even though i do miss them i also know that they miss me and still love me as we are in regular contact by email and telephone at least once a week. I am dreading the winter as its chilly at the moment and i hate the cold, but im also looking forward to it as well. To see clean snow and the chances to photograph its beauty is a chance i have never had. City snow where i was was browny slushy stuff or just plain sheet ice in layers the thickness of paving slabs. Then comes christmas, this will be the first christmas ever that i wont be spending with my family, it was a tradition to all go to my mums and have luch and a buffet tea. Now we are going to be here and its just the 2 of us so i have to figure out what we are going to do for christmas and boxing day. It just seems strange to be going from hectic times to doing nothing over that period. i was thinking of plannning on going down as a surprise visit for my mum and staying a few days but letting my dad in on it so we can plan it. Its something i know she would love!!!!!

Anyways now you know how i got to where i am

love and light